The Sound of Settling
I am so glad our pals from London are in town (with their LAPTOP!!!!!). It is always fabulous to have their company (did I mention the laptop?) and their inspiring eating habits. In fact Steve is in the kitchen cooking up a storm and I am sitting here drinking Earl Grey and trying to focus on the positive which earlier today seem to diminish bit by bit as the day went on. They magically always seem to be on this side of the pond during a severe change in my life or Steve’s. They were in NYC the day I started my last job a few years back. They were obviously here for our wedding and the few days before…and they here now as I go through some serious decision making. Things need to change with the work situation and my floundering on school.
I feel like I have been settling instead of go getting. Last Friday I met up with some pals for a b-day bash and we had a great conversation about compromising. They are a bit further into their professional careers than I am so it was so inspiring to hear them have some of the same questions about career goals that I do. Someone mentioned that the average American changes her or his career about 7 times in a lifetime! SEVEN. Yikes.
I am the kinda gal who can not just go to work and consider it just a job, for just a paycheck. I want it to be a part of me. 40 hours a week is no small change. That is the glory of non-profit work. The mission. Unfortunately I have found a company that is mission is more of a memory. I am working for people I do not believe in or trust. I might be being a bit dramatic but from a new employee perspective this is what has been presented to me. To see women in power treat other women they way that we were treated in 1950 is pretty amazing for a Women’s Study graduate with several years experience behind her.
So maybe I need to make some almost Spring and almost my Birthday resolutions (not in any particular order) with no time limits attached.
- (As soon as our computer is up and running) Research Grad School Fellowships for NYC school and maybe Baltimore (Hi Grandma!)
- Take the damn GREs including a possible prep class
- New job… in the field of counseling/reproductive rights/ social work/women’s studies. Something I strongly believe in (I love that I can be so Idealistic in my lists)
- Applications for grad school at least 4-5
So I think this is a good place to start. I do not need to hear the echo of settling in my head anymore.